People did populate in Tumblr, which sucks. REAL HARD.
This is what I hate the most. I mean, ughhh. Nevermind. I'll sound really bad if I try explaining it, but seriously, I'm really not pleased.
I don't think I'll be back on Tumblr any time soon; I almost had a year on that place. Sacred place once. :| Awful. Tumblarity for me doesn't even matter. All that matters to me there is that it's silent and peaceful and away from GODDAMN poseurs.
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I'll try changing my layout sometime next year. It's pretty hard to change layouts when you're not on your home PC. Speaking of which, I do miss our PC.
*sigh* Popularity sucks.
{ music } Defying Gravity - Glee Cast
I'll try settling to only ONE blogging site for now, or at least manage two to three blogs, and that would be my Tumblr, Madam-Red@Blogspot and metamorphose-planetarium@Blogspot.
Tabulas will be on HOLD for now. I shall resume blogging here when people populate on Tumblr. :)
See you soon, Tabulas.
What the fuck am I saying? I'm completely oblivious of what I'm saying right now, I'm sorry, I'm being such a big dummy.
Hello. I resume on blogging, not on photo-blogging. Let's just wait for my grandfather to get out of the hospital, okay? Then I start doing my normal routine again. Haha, I know, I know, no one reads this thing.
Anyway. This day was a little bit disappointing, well, to start it off, it was a Thursday, and Thursdays, in general, are hell days. I mean, c'mon, we go to every building there is in school. Maceda, Computer Building, Main, and Bordner. Dude. That, to sum it up, is hell. Inferno. The lair of the deadly diablo.
Uh, why the hell am I speaking in "narative fanfiction type" text here? Yes, this is Samantha speaking, and I have the weirdest vocabulary ever. I just need to type this out before I do my assignments and stuff. I just want to get my head straight.
So, back to the subject at hand. Day = disappointing. Dainybaby was being a moron for forcing me to to stand a few centimeters away from him, or rather was that fate, since we were on the same place. I saw him go out of the canteen before hand, but I think he went in, I don't really care, since I just went to get Dainybaby and get some Cracklings (lmao). Just proves how much of a pig I am. Well, Dainybaby started calling him and told us to talk, and we just kept on ignoring each other and pretended to talk to somebody else, when in my mind, there's only one thing left to say:
"What's left to be talked about? You love somebody else. I don't care if it's a joke, but the fact that it hurts, and the fact that you didn't deny it, you actually lied to me, sonny, and you've got a lot of persuading if you want me back. Which is totally impossible, by the way. :)"
I know well that he's ignoring me because I said something bad about them. *recalls* Wait, did I? Or is he ignoring me because I'm angry at him? I have no idea.
If he, personally, talks to me, let's see what happen. Let's see if I cry or actually even bother to listen. But I doubt if he even want me back? Why. I'm his worst bad luck. He could never be happy if I am. Well, looks like he's having fun right now, though. Because I'm sad. It's just give and take. Or maybe I'm just thinking too much.
Why don't I want to let this go? I'm a living, breathing person. My pride gets in the way, okay. I'm guessing I won't be able to sleep tonight. I'll be doing a lot writing, thinking, and breathing. Maybe some crying, but GOD, SAMANTHA. The term "crying" sounds overrated coming from you! STFU okay?
As I said before,
"You're not my everything, though I act like you are. And actually, I'm hating it."
Kudos to all of you. Ciao
CROSSPOSTED FROM HERE
{ music } Love, Sex, Magic - Ciara & Justin Timberlake
{ mood } blah
I remember these familiar scene. You know, you and me, chatting away the night, those sleepless nights I've endured just to be with you and talk to you even for a while...
I've been sleeping early these past few weeks, I guess I've been trying to get on for a little while, and when I know that you're not going on, I'll be there for a while a chat, then I'll be off. I know you won't be on for a while, but I'm waiting anyway.
There are a LOT of unconveyed feelings in me. I have no means of telling it to you, though. I might have done a little bit too much this time, but I don't care anyway. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Thanks a lot.
I should sleep now, I guess. I have classes tomorrow. *pats myself to sleep*
Seriously. I mean, I broke it off with the hope that we'll be back 3 years after, since I promised. I broke it off because we were too young. I had the hope that we will really be back again.
Uhh, yeah. So apparently, he has a girlfriend, or so they say, and of course, I have to say I was hurt. VERY hurt. I didn't cry like a baby, of course. This morning, I was watching music videos and I cried at the songs I know that will hurt me very much. I cried a lot silently today.
First, let me point out that the "3 month rule" is very important to me. We broke it off at January. He got a girlfriend at March.
Ugh. This hurts too much for me. I need to just cry this out.
{ music } Aka No Seijaku - Yoko Ishida
{ mood } sad